long is the day. and hard is the way.
i can see my dreams coming to fruition. taking shape. becoming taste.
so im not sure this week at work is gonna go. gotta meeting sometime to discuss my 3-5 year plan.
i got some testing i need to do. maybe i'll get stuff in to do a lil development. we'll see.
my chia head is really growing. except for the top.
do i really want a cat?
probably won't be able to sleep tonight.
so glad i caught myself from gettin scammed.
i got some testing i need to do. maybe i'll get stuff in to do a lil development. we'll see.
my chia head is really growing. except for the top.
do i really want a cat?
probably won't be able to sleep tonight.
so glad i caught myself from gettin scammed.
thanks
i'm pretty thankful... kinda? can you be thankful wanting more? yes. ok. my job. duh. that i have a core group of people that give a shit about me. every day is a gift. though i dont act like it sometimes. i need to get back to that. love each day mentality. no sleep. no rest for the wicked. as they say.
maybe if you could trust
something would happen with us
IV in vein
why are girls so territorial. i wont sleep on that bed. i wont sit on that couch. i wont go in that apartment. boys arent like that. hm?
if the right one will come, will i know it?
sharks. monsters. special creatures.
i'm hangin out with my best friend tomorrow. yay.
what if you took the cream cheese filling from a pumpkin roll. and put it under pumpkin pie filling. how freaking good would that be? amazing i bet.
"i love this r&d team"... why... because i do my best thinking in the car...
i barely write poetry anymore. hmmm.
F.M.L.
maybe if you could trust
something would happen with us
IV in vein
why are girls so territorial. i wont sleep on that bed. i wont sit on that couch. i wont go in that apartment. boys arent like that. hm?
if the right one will come, will i know it?
sharks. monsters. special creatures.
i'm hangin out with my best friend tomorrow. yay.
what if you took the cream cheese filling from a pumpkin roll. and put it under pumpkin pie filling. how freaking good would that be? amazing i bet.
"i love this r&d team"... why... because i do my best thinking in the car...
i barely write poetry anymore. hmmm.
F.M.L.
back to my roots
pretty good day.
got my windows tinted. car looks PIMP. sexy. ha.
gotta get my oil changed tomorrow.
makin chocolates tonight. i still got it. theyre not quite done yet. but lookin good i think. memories memories.
ive kind of changed my eating habits a bit. cuttin out a lot of sugar. a lot of fat. its goin well so far. im happy for that.
thats about all.
got my windows tinted. car looks PIMP. sexy. ha.
gotta get my oil changed tomorrow.
makin chocolates tonight. i still got it. theyre not quite done yet. but lookin good i think. memories memories.
ive kind of changed my eating habits a bit. cuttin out a lot of sugar. a lot of fat. its goin well so far. im happy for that.
thats about all.
II
uh oh
i think i might have
yeah
yeah i did
this is round two
all the respectable people,
you might wanna leave the room
or you can just plug your ears
if you fear
i might say somethin
you dont wanna hear
cuz when i get to hittin
all the lyrics
that ive written
i wont be quittin
until ive offended
almost all the women
and when the song is over
ill head down to the bar
buy some drinks
and pound them hard
then in an hour or two
when the booze have started
to effectively spin the room
ill find a lil groupie
who thought i was real real cute
tell her i'll let her drive me home
and she can stay over too
lie to her ass
tell her we'll spoon
of course all guys know
spoon is code for bone
i got the hidden camera set up
she'll never know
put that shit on the internet
show it all my friends
point at my own ass
and say thats how you do it
boys take notes
i can teach ya stuff
you've never been shown
and when the morning comes
and im finally done
ill give her boot
n sweetly say
that was kinda fun
but you should be on your way
dont bother callin
im havin my number changed
thanks but no thanks
and thats how this one ends
now go check the internet
to make sure this wasn't pretend
www dot
your girl is in my bed
im sorry son
i just thought you should know
she wasn't at her friends
i know thats what she said
but shes over your shit
the
end
i think i might have
yeah
yeah i did
this is round two
all the respectable people,
you might wanna leave the room
or you can just plug your ears
if you fear
i might say somethin
you dont wanna hear
cuz when i get to hittin
all the lyrics
that ive written
i wont be quittin
until ive offended
almost all the women
and when the song is over
ill head down to the bar
buy some drinks
and pound them hard
then in an hour or two
when the booze have started
to effectively spin the room
ill find a lil groupie
who thought i was real real cute
tell her i'll let her drive me home
and she can stay over too
lie to her ass
tell her we'll spoon
of course all guys know
spoon is code for bone
i got the hidden camera set up
she'll never know
put that shit on the internet
show it all my friends
point at my own ass
and say thats how you do it
boys take notes
i can teach ya stuff
you've never been shown
and when the morning comes
and im finally done
ill give her boot
n sweetly say
that was kinda fun
but you should be on your way
dont bother callin
im havin my number changed
thanks but no thanks
and thats how this one ends
now go check the internet
to make sure this wasn't pretend
www dot
your girl is in my bed
im sorry son
i just thought you should know
she wasn't at her friends
i know thats what she said
but shes over your shit
the
end
white ponies and rusted horses
she opened the door... put her fingers up to her lips... and said, "shhhh"... on the phone, with him... i wasn't supposed to be around... yet, there i was... as she hung up she started crying... "its over"...
i asked why... with one hand covering her teary eyes the other pointed at me and she said... "you"...
i feel good about things.. next week should be productive at work... and im going home... i get to see the extended family... its been a while... and my friends... i have two separate lives... there... and here... i dont know why it is that way... i've tried to make connections here... but they've been half hearted.... look at my top friends... sheesh... its not that im not myself here or anything... i dunno... im just rambling...
eat the weak.
i asked why... with one hand covering her teary eyes the other pointed at me and she said... "you"...
i feel good about things.. next week should be productive at work... and im going home... i get to see the extended family... its been a while... and my friends... i have two separate lives... there... and here... i dont know why it is that way... i've tried to make connections here... but they've been half hearted.... look at my top friends... sheesh... its not that im not myself here or anything... i dunno... im just rambling...
eat the weak.
thirsty thursday
i've tasted hell... it taste just like you...
usually by this time of the week im pretty tired... only thing i am today is pretty sore... and pretty bored...
short week next week. exciting.
i hate waiting for packages to come in from vendors. shit. you want my business. get yo ass movin. right?
damnit to hell when i forget good rhymes.
stay away...... ..... .... is a good song
you got some stuff on your shoulder. you need to dust yo self off. ya pimp...... he said.
usually by this time of the week im pretty tired... only thing i am today is pretty sore... and pretty bored...
short week next week. exciting.
i hate waiting for packages to come in from vendors. shit. you want my business. get yo ass movin. right?
damnit to hell when i forget good rhymes.
stay away...... ..... .... is a good song
you got some stuff on your shoulder. you need to dust yo self off. ya pimp...... he said.
boy was i wrong lol
"give me by the end of the year. everything will be complete. and ill be the happiest motherfucker on the planet. so let it be written. so let it be done."
what if there was a better feel
so semi productive day.
came home. worked out. im tired. and not at as strong as i was three weeks ago. i got some ground to make up. but i feel better.
went out to dinner. but i was full.
and im so tired im gonna go to bed early. and that was my day.
came home. worked out. im tired. and not at as strong as i was three weeks ago. i got some ground to make up. but i feel better.
went out to dinner. but i was full.
and im so tired im gonna go to bed early. and that was my day.
race cars and rim jobs
so im not too tired after my long day. got up at 4. went in at 6. did the job this morning as well as could be done. i gave some advice. it wasn't adhered to. and it would have worked well if it was. but oh well. went out to breakfast/lunch. learned of the "ojo". came back. did a couple chores. im having vendors call me and want to set up meetings, needing things, me needing things. its neat. anyway. went back to visalia. had a couple drinks at the cocktail reception. not too many because im trying to move up and NOT make an ass of myself. some people dont get that. but thats why theyre where they are. and im not. but anyway. got my bonus check. watched some cool videos. had an ok dinner with ok wine. and that was my day.
getting my windows tinted this weekend. maybe go play some golf. i dunno.
hey. check out the new sponsor of the stewart-haas nascar car. its pretty sweeeeet.
getting my windows tinted this weekend. maybe go play some golf. i dunno.
hey. check out the new sponsor of the stewart-haas nascar car. its pretty sweeeeet.
fear and self loathing in clovis
i forgot to mention. my mom thought it would be funny to give me a viagra for my birthday. jokes on her. im gonna use that shit.
took care of some mini shopping today. bought some bomby cologne.
also decided i need to start working out again. i just felt better about myself when i was. even if it didnt make a huge difference. apparently it was noticeable. so. all over again. here we go.
took care of some mini shopping today. bought some bomby cologne.
also decided i need to start working out again. i just felt better about myself when i was. even if it didnt make a huge difference. apparently it was noticeable. so. all over again. here we go.
if u could have a perfect day. exactly the way you want it. what would it be? do you even know? cuz i dont. well. i dunno. maybe. not really.
bday day two. my actual birthday. was good times. low key. kind of like the first. which is what i truly enjoy. mini golf. mini margaritas. i think pretty much everybody that matters said happy birthday. in one way. or another.
i really wonder what makes me happy anymore. cuz given the life i have. i should be amazed.
im gonna have quite a bit of extra money this month or so. bonus. sara is payin rent. 3 checks in december. and another check i may or may not cash. which could add up to quite a bit. aint nothin wrong with that.
what else. got a couple decent sized projects to work on at work. it takes forever tho to get things done. gotta wait for approvals. wait for people to ship you stuff. but. im happy doing what i do. cuz its exactly what i want. makes me never wanna leave. infact. if i didnt have to live in fresno i may not. but. i hate it here. i want ocean. i want cool weather. i want a better life than the what this valley has to give me. ive seen better things. better places. and i want them.
i want better everything.
bday day two. my actual birthday. was good times. low key. kind of like the first. which is what i truly enjoy. mini golf. mini margaritas. i think pretty much everybody that matters said happy birthday. in one way. or another.
i really wonder what makes me happy anymore. cuz given the life i have. i should be amazed.
im gonna have quite a bit of extra money this month or so. bonus. sara is payin rent. 3 checks in december. and another check i may or may not cash. which could add up to quite a bit. aint nothin wrong with that.
what else. got a couple decent sized projects to work on at work. it takes forever tho to get things done. gotta wait for approvals. wait for people to ship you stuff. but. im happy doing what i do. cuz its exactly what i want. makes me never wanna leave. infact. if i didnt have to live in fresno i may not. but. i hate it here. i want ocean. i want cool weather. i want a better life than the what this valley has to give me. ive seen better things. better places. and i want them.
i want better everything.
shiny toy guns
birthday fun. birthday drunk.
so everyone showed. and then some. wait. ill get to that. went to the pool hall. played a round. had a round. and decided i needed some tunes. some douche got in front of me and put on some shit music. then i picked out mine. its important that when picking out music the first five seconds of the first song hits people in the mouth. hello deftones. when girls telephone boys. the second it started playing the cocksucker who was before me put up his hands and shook his said. saying i didnt pick this out. it was quite funny. heavy and loving it. anyway. i drank beer. played off and on good pool. someone brought her "beau" and his friend too. and they both looked homeless. i think they tried to be nice. telling me happy birthday and stuff. but i was a prick. alpha male status. to the point where they got their own pool table. oh well. i had a good time. which was the point.
walked out on the pier. smelled the ocean. saw waves upon waves. always beautiful.
had in n out. delicous.
on the drive home was wondering if anyone would text me at 12:00. cuz then its official. and of course someone did. thank you.
you're more than in my head.
so everyone showed. and then some. wait. ill get to that. went to the pool hall. played a round. had a round. and decided i needed some tunes. some douche got in front of me and put on some shit music. then i picked out mine. its important that when picking out music the first five seconds of the first song hits people in the mouth. hello deftones. when girls telephone boys. the second it started playing the cocksucker who was before me put up his hands and shook his said. saying i didnt pick this out. it was quite funny. heavy and loving it. anyway. i drank beer. played off and on good pool. someone brought her "beau" and his friend too. and they both looked homeless. i think they tried to be nice. telling me happy birthday and stuff. but i was a prick. alpha male status. to the point where they got their own pool table. oh well. i had a good time. which was the point.
walked out on the pier. smelled the ocean. saw waves upon waves. always beautiful.
had in n out. delicous.
on the drive home was wondering if anyone would text me at 12:00. cuz then its official. and of course someone did. thank you.
you're more than in my head.
untouchable
im not sure who's showin up tonight. probably some people i didnt invite. my brother is engaged. im envious. but. i want something untouchable. not an ordinary love. as they say.
... on the drive back we stopped off for some soda... before i stepped outta the car i gave her a quick kiss on the lips... of course i had already done so about thirty some odd times the last couple hours... i just... couldn't get over the sensation i felt each time.. it was surreal... i leaned back to get out of the car and continue on my journey to quench our thirst... and she said, "give me another one"... i stopped... smiled... and leaned back in...
i will never belong to you, again
oi vaaaaaaaaaaay.
got cocoa butter in today. now i can make chocolates. which i havent really done in.... oh a year and a half?
had some bomby food from peru and brazil today. aaaaand i got a nice lil bottle of peruvian alcohol. very rare stuff. its only made there and they only export 1% of it. tastes like tequila :P
got my stuff packed for this weekend. it is NOT gonna be a sober weekend. oh fuck no. lets see who actually shows up for my get togethers.
im full of tokyo steak house.
after 15 years of wanting one i finally got a chia pet. well a chia head. oh i should give him a mohawk!
i miss my shithead friend. and i hate saying that. cuz i really shouldn't. should i? but when you have voids, you plug them in with alternative resources, alternative vendors, alternative outlets. and im usually pretty good about that kind of stuff.
top chef tonight.
i have a pretty goddamn dirty mouth, apparently. rolls eyes.
tomorrow is my friday. gotta be to work earrrrrrrrly on monday. like 6am i think. im in charge. of course i should be anyway.
and thats about all i gotta say. but that might change shortly.
got cocoa butter in today. now i can make chocolates. which i havent really done in.... oh a year and a half?
had some bomby food from peru and brazil today. aaaaand i got a nice lil bottle of peruvian alcohol. very rare stuff. its only made there and they only export 1% of it. tastes like tequila :P
got my stuff packed for this weekend. it is NOT gonna be a sober weekend. oh fuck no. lets see who actually shows up for my get togethers.
im full of tokyo steak house.
after 15 years of wanting one i finally got a chia pet. well a chia head. oh i should give him a mohawk!
i miss my shithead friend. and i hate saying that. cuz i really shouldn't. should i? but when you have voids, you plug them in with alternative resources, alternative vendors, alternative outlets. and im usually pretty good about that kind of stuff.
top chef tonight.
i have a pretty goddamn dirty mouth, apparently. rolls eyes.
tomorrow is my friday. gotta be to work earrrrrrrrly on monday. like 6am i think. im in charge. of course i should be anyway.
and thats about all i gotta say. but that might change shortly.
follow the yellow brick road to hell
got my stuff booked for kansas. canada soon.
got taken out to lunch. it's a beautiful thing.
i also had to write a self evaluation. blah.
came home. went out and had some beers. got a good buzz goin.
and now i'm tired.
livin the dream?
no.
livin?
i think so.
check my pulse.
got taken out to lunch. it's a beautiful thing.
i also had to write a self evaluation. blah.
came home. went out and had some beers. got a good buzz goin.
and now i'm tired.
livin the dream?
no.
livin?
i think so.
check my pulse.
i understand and wish to continue
i HATE it when im babied. absolutely hate it. let me fly. geeze.
met with a new agent today. pretty much told me the same thing my last guy did. i cant make houses come on the market. unless i kill someone and wait for the house to foreclose. but i dont have that kind of time. or do i?
good football game.
thats about it. boring boring. same same.
met with a new agent today. pretty much told me the same thing my last guy did. i cant make houses come on the market. unless i kill someone and wait for the house to foreclose. but i dont have that kind of time. or do i?
good football game.
thats about it. boring boring. same same.
had an ok trip back home. wasn't spectacular.
went grocery shopping today. wasn't spectacular.
looking forward to my birthday weekend though. i try not to get too excited for holidays or things of that nature cuz i usually get let down. but. its not where you go. its who youre with. remember that because its true.
dj hero. guitar hero. rock band. i pee on those games.
not sure how this week at work is gonna be. my energy item is on the back burner. ugh.
gotta look into gettin my passport.
nothing amazing at the moment.
went grocery shopping today. wasn't spectacular.
looking forward to my birthday weekend though. i try not to get too excited for holidays or things of that nature cuz i usually get let down. but. its not where you go. its who youre with. remember that because its true.
dj hero. guitar hero. rock band. i pee on those games.
not sure how this week at work is gonna be. my energy item is on the back burner. ugh.
gotta look into gettin my passport.
nothing amazing at the moment.
aaaaaaaaaaand my rap
huh
yeah
this is my rap
hold on
let me think of
how to make this start
alright
here we go
punchin my keyboard
like a loud mouth whore
this is me
wantin more
gettin drunk on V
but this shit
just aint hittin me
maybe i
can shoot it into my veins
maybe then
it might
hit my brain
maybe i
could make some mistakes
if you dont
hit the brakes
and maybe then
our life would be made
why the fuck did you invite me here
this party is lame
all the girls here
should be locked back in their cage
this shit is like a zoo
i even had to pay
dont feed the animals
just stay outta their way
after about an hour
i stopped in my tracks
found a beauty in the beasts
and baby had back
but she was with some guy
i thought to myself
fuck it
im gonna say hi
he said whoa son
your talkin to my girl
i told him no
yours is over there
the one that escaped from sea world
and then i asked this girl
what do you see in him
im a technologist
hes just a technician
he'll just take you places
that you've already been
look doll
this isnt a place you want to stay
lets go back to my place
ill fix you a drink
while you add me on myspace
i got
satin sheets
shag carpeting
and once your over
you might not wanna leave
quite honestly
that'd be ok with me
so that is the end of this story
im sorry if it was kind of boring
but i left with the best looking girl of the party
and i dont really know
quite how to finish this
soooo
fuck it
yeah
this is my rap
hold on
let me think of
how to make this start
alright
here we go
punchin my keyboard
like a loud mouth whore
this is me
wantin more
gettin drunk on V
but this shit
just aint hittin me
maybe i
can shoot it into my veins
maybe then
it might
hit my brain
maybe i
could make some mistakes
if you dont
hit the brakes
and maybe then
our life would be made
why the fuck did you invite me here
this party is lame
all the girls here
should be locked back in their cage
this shit is like a zoo
i even had to pay
dont feed the animals
just stay outta their way
after about an hour
i stopped in my tracks
found a beauty in the beasts
and baby had back
but she was with some guy
i thought to myself
fuck it
im gonna say hi
he said whoa son
your talkin to my girl
i told him no
yours is over there
the one that escaped from sea world
and then i asked this girl
what do you see in him
im a technologist
hes just a technician
he'll just take you places
that you've already been
look doll
this isnt a place you want to stay
lets go back to my place
ill fix you a drink
while you add me on myspace
i got
satin sheets
shag carpeting
and once your over
you might not wanna leave
quite honestly
that'd be ok with me
so that is the end of this story
im sorry if it was kind of boring
but i left with the best looking girl of the party
and i dont really know
quite how to finish this
soooo
fuck it
if it tastes good, eat it
it was a day to be remembered, or maybe forgotten...
i picked up her up early in the AM... she stepped into the car... "i told him i was going out of town with my mom"... we're in the clear...
we were cordial... nothing new... i don't remember what she was wearing... or how she smelled... but.. whatever it was... it was good... we spoke of this and that.... her and him... what we wanted... light and heavy...
we stopped off at some mom & pop place for breakfast... we enjoyed the food, and each other... on the way out i opened her door.. "i like this, but not all the time. he opens all my doors and pulls out all my chairs; makes me feel like i cant do anything for myself"... i replied "well this is the only time I'm doing this for you today so it's no big deal".... and there we were....
i drove off... our destination awaiting.. she said "if anything happens today, it doesn't mean anything".... i wondered, ok, what the fuck does that mean.... i didn't care... i wasn't looking to be burdened down... i had yet to be tamed...
rendezvous... we arrive at the point of my adventure... the ocean.. lover's cliff... funny thing... everyone there was dressed in tuxedos and dresses... there was a wedding taking place.. i proposed we sit down and watch... we did... close enough to view the expression on the happy couples faces... and yes, they were happy... some lovers you can just tell... how intense... how deep... how real... that what they feel, is forever....
it was windy and cold... i could see the goosebumps on her arms... i put my arm around her and rubbed her to a mild temperature... i think my insides turned temperature as well...
we changed scenery... went to a different shore... a little more... secluded... rolled out a blanket on which we layed... talked... whatever... the first kiss is always the most important... so you have to make that one count... and i did...
..."you have no idea how long i've been waiting for that".... and at that very point... my blood turned warm... and red... i was whole... how unexpected... i felt... tamed... instaneously... it was hard to explain...
we layed on the beach for... two.. three... maybe four hours... my hands everywhere... her hands everywhere... who cares who saw anything... how intense... it was cold and windy.. sand in my hair... sand on her cheek, which i cleaned away... and just as quickly as it began... it ended... time to go....
"this doesn't mean anything", she spoke....
and she meant it....
how could ones cold blood, suddenly run warm... and it not mean anything?...
i picked up her up early in the AM... she stepped into the car... "i told him i was going out of town with my mom"... we're in the clear...
we were cordial... nothing new... i don't remember what she was wearing... or how she smelled... but.. whatever it was... it was good... we spoke of this and that.... her and him... what we wanted... light and heavy...
we stopped off at some mom & pop place for breakfast... we enjoyed the food, and each other... on the way out i opened her door.. "i like this, but not all the time. he opens all my doors and pulls out all my chairs; makes me feel like i cant do anything for myself"... i replied "well this is the only time I'm doing this for you today so it's no big deal".... and there we were....
i drove off... our destination awaiting.. she said "if anything happens today, it doesn't mean anything".... i wondered, ok, what the fuck does that mean.... i didn't care... i wasn't looking to be burdened down... i had yet to be tamed...
rendezvous... we arrive at the point of my adventure... the ocean.. lover's cliff... funny thing... everyone there was dressed in tuxedos and dresses... there was a wedding taking place.. i proposed we sit down and watch... we did... close enough to view the expression on the happy couples faces... and yes, they were happy... some lovers you can just tell... how intense... how deep... how real... that what they feel, is forever....
it was windy and cold... i could see the goosebumps on her arms... i put my arm around her and rubbed her to a mild temperature... i think my insides turned temperature as well...
we changed scenery... went to a different shore... a little more... secluded... rolled out a blanket on which we layed... talked... whatever... the first kiss is always the most important... so you have to make that one count... and i did...
..."you have no idea how long i've been waiting for that".... and at that very point... my blood turned warm... and red... i was whole... how unexpected... i felt... tamed... instaneously... it was hard to explain...
we layed on the beach for... two.. three... maybe four hours... my hands everywhere... her hands everywhere... who cares who saw anything... how intense... it was cold and windy.. sand in my hair... sand on her cheek, which i cleaned away... and just as quickly as it began... it ended... time to go....
"this doesn't mean anything", she spoke....
and she meant it....
how could ones cold blood, suddenly run warm... and it not mean anything?...
it's all true
sometimes rumors are true. this just in. im going to canada in march. im getting my tickets on monday. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand in february im going to kansas for a week. how ya like that shit. life is sweet. all payed for. i love my job.
had a nice time tonight. in slo. at the beach. have no idea what the plan is tomorrow.
and thats about all i really got to say.
had a nice time tonight. in slo. at the beach. have no idea what the plan is tomorrow.
and thats about all i really got to say.
im packed. im ready to go.
i really feel like a drink. but. no.
nothing new. nothing exciting.
oh. but. rumor has it im trying to go to canada in march. for a food science workshop. and get the company to pay for it. and hopefully in three years be certified as a culinary scientist. but. those are just rumors.
i really feel like a drink. but. no.
nothing new. nothing exciting.
oh. but. rumor has it im trying to go to canada in march. for a food science workshop. and get the company to pay for it. and hopefully in three years be certified as a culinary scientist. but. those are just rumors.
rumor has it
...I was living the lawless life of an ambitious bohemian, always on the hunt for something fresh, something exciting, that "New Car Smell". I wasn't committing moral abomination. I was simply obeying my fundamental instincts, "when you are hungry, you eat"...
soooo i just wrote a nice blog... and my internet fucked up and its all gone now... son of a bitch...
i cant get her scent off of me...
r&d advice... dont try to do your own nutritionals without using a program... youll be waaaay off...
my evening life has been quite uneventful... im boring...
im sorry.. im scrawny...
my rap is gettin close to bein complete... yes im still workin on it here and there... its hard for me to write about that crap that they do...
if a tree falls... and no one is around to hear it... does it make a sound?
if you share an intense moment with someone... but you couldnt feel it... does it really count?
haircut tomorrow...
i cant get her scent off of me...
r&d advice... dont try to do your own nutritionals without using a program... youll be waaaay off...
my evening life has been quite uneventful... im boring...
im sorry.. im scrawny...
my rap is gettin close to bein complete... yes im still workin on it here and there... its hard for me to write about that crap that they do...
if a tree falls... and no one is around to hear it... does it make a sound?
if you share an intense moment with someone... but you couldnt feel it... does it really count?
haircut tomorrow...
the high end of low
here we are.
you know, sometimes. i hide stuff in my blogs. between paragraphs. in spaces. everywhere. i make them in the same color as the background. so you have to highlight it to see it. subtle right?
i think its funny. when you create phrases and use them so often. that when you try to use those words in regular usage. people misunderstand you.
and thats about it.
you know, sometimes. i hide stuff in my blogs. between paragraphs. in spaces. everywhere. i make them in the same color as the background. so you have to highlight it to see it. subtle right?
i think its funny. when you create phrases and use them so often. that when you try to use those words in regular usage. people misunderstand you.
and thats about it.
the sand reminds me of a place
i love to
hate to
go
why did i take you there?
why did you take it there?
stop
im not doing this
again
holding my breath for you to
say when
hands of steel
and times of need
put your hand in my chest
squeeze
resuscitate
me
10 oz to emotional freedom
10 to drown you out
10 more im drowning in you again
i thought i knew what this was about
sand takes me to a place
i tried so hard
to fucking escape
hate to
love to
leave you
breathe in
lean in
tease him
i love to
hate to
go
why did i take you there?
why did you take it there?
stop
im not doing this
again
holding my breath for you to
say when
hands of steel
and times of need
put your hand in my chest
squeeze
resuscitate
me
10 oz to emotional freedom
10 to drown you out
10 more im drowning in you again
i thought i knew what this was about
sand takes me to a place
i tried so hard
to fucking escape
hate to
love to
leave you
breathe in
lean in
tease him
empty soul of a machine
strike that. go back. i might be eating three hundred fifty dollars but whatever. looks like this eight thousand dollar house thing is gonna get extended for another six months. so i got time to go after a house some more. which i wouldnt have given those other apartments three hundred fifty dollars to hold a place for me. so i guess im kinda fucked on that one. buuuut i failed the first time at this shit. now im gonna go back and try again. sooner or later i get i what i go after.... kind of.
truth. i havent been extremely happy in quite a while. also truth. i havent been extremely sad either. i feel like my emotions are as flat as a corpse's heart rate. and i hate it. i fucking hate it. i've had absolutely no passion within me. i need something. to either bring me up higher than ive ever been before. or to knock me on my ass. i dont really care at this point. but im uninspired. unimpressed. and discontent. what can i do about it. maybe someone is sleepin me prozac in my coffee and i dont know about it.
had a decent time at knotts scary farm. watching people get the shit scared outta them is very funny. i think i jumped a couple times. oh the food cost there is ridiculous. i thought disneyland and six flags bad was bad. shiiiiiiiiiiit. my ass is gonna take satiety suckers next time i go to one of these fuckers. highway robbery. but anyway.
not sure whats gonna be goin on at work this week. im goin home for the weekend.
still dont know what im doing for my birthday. oh well. it is what it is. (see thats the kind of shit im talking about)
i need to go shave.
truth. i havent been extremely happy in quite a while. also truth. i havent been extremely sad either. i feel like my emotions are as flat as a corpse's heart rate. and i hate it. i fucking hate it. i've had absolutely no passion within me. i need something. to either bring me up higher than ive ever been before. or to knock me on my ass. i dont really care at this point. but im uninspired. unimpressed. and discontent. what can i do about it. maybe someone is sleepin me prozac in my coffee and i dont know about it.
had a decent time at knotts scary farm. watching people get the shit scared outta them is very funny. i think i jumped a couple times. oh the food cost there is ridiculous. i thought disneyland and six flags bad was bad. shiiiiiiiiiiit. my ass is gonna take satiety suckers next time i go to one of these fuckers. highway robbery. but anyway.
not sure whats gonna be goin on at work this week. im goin home for the weekend.
still dont know what im doing for my birthday. oh well. it is what it is. (see thats the kind of shit im talking about)
i need to go shave.