2009 in review
I'm tryin to think of all the stuff that happened this year. and there's quite a few things that stand out. But i know i'm forgetting a lot.
Finished up my last year of college. Passed micro by 1%. fuck that class.
Then i graduated and had a good sized shin dig at my place. that was fun. beer pong in a cap and gown.
Started interning at ruiz foods and was eventually hired. I got my dream job.
Oh and i bought my car. which i pined for for three long years.
Started looking to buy a home.
Developed a product that is gonna be stores soon.
Spent most of the year with a wonderful girl that would do pretty much anything for me. Which is a rare thing to find these days i think. Especially to me. Cuz i'm a pain in the ass.
i quit excessively drinking all the time.
im gonna stop capitalizing my sentences now.
drove to the top of california along the coast. went on a couple other trips i think. kayaked a few places. monterey. santa cruz.
so i think i finally became that successful person i was supposed to be this year. did exactly what i said i was going to fucking do. almost to a T. That business adult whatever side of my life is pretty well taken care. the other parts i dunno. still socially inept. i now hate driving over big bridges. my relationship skills come and go. i dunno. i hate the quiet.
so next year i'm thinking will be pretty good. my product will hit stores. I'll find out when on monday. but im thinking march or april. my fucking brain child. on shelves. in mouths. enjoyed. and digested. and hopefully i should have a house pretty soon too. after all that is taken care of i'm not sure what i'll do. maybe get engaged or something. ha.
i am considering being a drug dealer. apparently thats hot shit. dont ask. wouldnt that be something though. what if i just threw it all away? moved home. and that was all she wrote. id go back to restaurant work. oi i'd probably kill myself.
tonight some people are comin over. we're gonna play some mario kart four player style. do some drinkin. maybe i'll get everyone to play mafia. cuz that sounds kind of fun at the moment. oh memories.
i think next year i wanna work on being more social. here. not in paso. i need to get out more with friends. so im gonna make a conscious effort to do that.
what else. i need to get back into working out. i'm sorry. im scrawny.
i'm close to being complete. with everything. maybe i'll get there next year.
Finished up my last year of college. Passed micro by 1%. fuck that class.
Then i graduated and had a good sized shin dig at my place. that was fun. beer pong in a cap and gown.
Started interning at ruiz foods and was eventually hired. I got my dream job.
Oh and i bought my car. which i pined for for three long years.
Started looking to buy a home.
Developed a product that is gonna be stores soon.
Spent most of the year with a wonderful girl that would do pretty much anything for me. Which is a rare thing to find these days i think. Especially to me. Cuz i'm a pain in the ass.
i quit excessively drinking all the time.
im gonna stop capitalizing my sentences now.
drove to the top of california along the coast. went on a couple other trips i think. kayaked a few places. monterey. santa cruz.
so i think i finally became that successful person i was supposed to be this year. did exactly what i said i was going to fucking do. almost to a T. That business adult whatever side of my life is pretty well taken care. the other parts i dunno. still socially inept. i now hate driving over big bridges. my relationship skills come and go. i dunno. i hate the quiet.
so next year i'm thinking will be pretty good. my product will hit stores. I'll find out when on monday. but im thinking march or april. my fucking brain child. on shelves. in mouths. enjoyed. and digested. and hopefully i should have a house pretty soon too. after all that is taken care of i'm not sure what i'll do. maybe get engaged or something. ha.
i am considering being a drug dealer. apparently thats hot shit. dont ask. wouldnt that be something though. what if i just threw it all away? moved home. and that was all she wrote. id go back to restaurant work. oi i'd probably kill myself.
tonight some people are comin over. we're gonna play some mario kart four player style. do some drinkin. maybe i'll get everyone to play mafia. cuz that sounds kind of fun at the moment. oh memories.
i think next year i wanna work on being more social. here. not in paso. i need to get out more with friends. so im gonna make a conscious effort to do that.
what else. i need to get back into working out. i'm sorry. im scrawny.
i'm close to being complete. with everything. maybe i'll get there next year.
dances with wolves
What do you want?
I want us. To go to bed with you every night. And i want to wake up next to you every morning. That's it. None of that other stuff really means that much to me.
*
"Startin to sound like you're comin around."
"I never left. Freak."
*
as i walked in i thought the room smelled kind of funny... it was cold... very cold... i layed down on the bed and surveyed my surroundings... got up after a little while to have a cigarette with an old acquittance... outside... amongst the small crowd that had gathered... she said, "i'm glad you're back; it's definitely a good thing"...
i smiled, "here's to stickin around"...
it was cold. i think i remember someone lighting a fire outback. everything is kind of hazy.
*
"when we do. i'm expecting a lot."
*
i went back into her room. layed down on the bed, next to her. ran my fingers along the bottom cusp of her sweater. making contact with her lower abdomen. i pulled myself up so my hips lay between her thighs. i kissed. and kissed. and kissed.
i was too enamored to sleep. i wrapped my arm around her and held on. like if i kept her close enough to me i wouldn't have to worry about her slipping away.
*
i layed on the bed intently watching her facial expressions as she was on the phone. smirks. and stone walls.
"he called me honey bunny"
my stomach turns into a sinking pit.
"i dont know what im doing, i'm an idiot"
really.
*
"there is where i would rather be"
*
hearts explode
this is how
lovers die
she ate my heart.
swallowed me whole.
digested my bones.
and even my soul.
I want us. To go to bed with you every night. And i want to wake up next to you every morning. That's it. None of that other stuff really means that much to me.
*
"Startin to sound like you're comin around."
"I never left. Freak."
*
as i walked in i thought the room smelled kind of funny... it was cold... very cold... i layed down on the bed and surveyed my surroundings... got up after a little while to have a cigarette with an old acquittance... outside... amongst the small crowd that had gathered... she said, "i'm glad you're back; it's definitely a good thing"...
i smiled, "here's to stickin around"...
it was cold. i think i remember someone lighting a fire outback. everything is kind of hazy.
*
"when we do. i'm expecting a lot."
*
i went back into her room. layed down on the bed, next to her. ran my fingers along the bottom cusp of her sweater. making contact with her lower abdomen. i pulled myself up so my hips lay between her thighs. i kissed. and kissed. and kissed.
i was too enamored to sleep. i wrapped my arm around her and held on. like if i kept her close enough to me i wouldn't have to worry about her slipping away.
*
i layed on the bed intently watching her facial expressions as she was on the phone. smirks. and stone walls.
"he called me honey bunny"
my stomach turns into a sinking pit.
"i dont know what im doing, i'm an idiot"
really.
*
"there is where i would rather be"
*
hearts explode
this is how
lovers die
she ate my heart.
swallowed me whole.
digested my bones.
and even my soul.
vacation starts now.
slept in til 11.
did some shopping. got a nice pair of black converse. yes im one of those kids now. some one time use red hair dye. so i can have a red fohawk. and a monster sticker for the back window of my car.
came home. made some thai chicken pizza. some hawaiian pizza.
and played some mario kart.
tomorrow morning me and jason are going golfing.
relaxing. good. shit.
story is comin along.
i want some ice cream.
slept in til 11.
did some shopping. got a nice pair of black converse. yes im one of those kids now. some one time use red hair dye. so i can have a red fohawk. and a monster sticker for the back window of my car.
came home. made some thai chicken pizza. some hawaiian pizza.
and played some mario kart.
tomorrow morning me and jason are going golfing.
relaxing. good. shit.
story is comin along.
i want some ice cream.
today consisted of.
polenta w/ pesto and squash. yum.
chipotle chicken tacos with mango salsa and pepperjack cheese sauce. amazing.
now having a wii w/ mario kart at my place. pretty fun.
my mood has been extremely up and down. just depends on whats going through my head at the moment i guess.
the neighbors cat is fun but is a terrorizer.
oh and i now own season five of the office. bitch.
polenta w/ pesto and squash. yum.
chipotle chicken tacos with mango salsa and pepperjack cheese sauce. amazing.
now having a wii w/ mario kart at my place. pretty fun.
my mood has been extremely up and down. just depends on whats going through my head at the moment i guess.
the neighbors cat is fun but is a terrorizer.
oh and i now own season five of the office. bitch.
woke up with a horrible hangover. oops. i had two of those anti hangover drinks. they were actually my chasers haha. and they worked in the sense that i drank alot last night and was feelin good pretty much the whole time. usually when i drink that much i feel icky. but i felt great while i was drinking. i felt horrible this morning. shit. so much for that.
spent all of today watching tv and playin on the computer. ugh. boring.
tomorrow is football day.
going golfing next week. skeet skeet
cooked my ham tonight. did up a nice spiced brown sugar and orange sauce. delicious. tomorrow im makin chicken tacos with mango salsa and pepperjack cheese sauce. damn im good. heh.
thats about it.
spent all of today watching tv and playin on the computer. ugh. boring.
tomorrow is football day.
going golfing next week. skeet skeet
cooked my ham tonight. did up a nice spiced brown sugar and orange sauce. delicious. tomorrow im makin chicken tacos with mango salsa and pepperjack cheese sauce. damn im good. heh.
thats about it.
christmas day. decent presents. i didnt have a list at all for anyone to work with. anything i want i pretty much buy nowadays. its a good life. but. i got some sweatervests. haha. i am easy to shop for. anyway. so i wasnt too dissapointed. i wasnt expecting much. spent the rest of the morning washing my car and doing laundry.
went and visited the thomasons for a couple hours. theyre my extended family. and i like stickin it to caleb whenever possible with my accomplishments. so that was good.
then went over to grandmas again for a quick dinner. duck. ham. good stuff. my family makes pretty decent food for the most part. im terrible cuz im so judgemental about what hits my tastebuds but i come from a good culinary foundation.
thats about it. back home. drinkin. thats what i do when i dont work the next day. which is forshadowing the plans for the week forthcoming.
on deck for this weekend? i dunno. alot of alone time. maybe cook a decent meal myself.
its time to start finishin the party inside. instead of outside. :O
went and visited the thomasons for a couple hours. theyre my extended family. and i like stickin it to caleb whenever possible with my accomplishments. so that was good.
then went over to grandmas again for a quick dinner. duck. ham. good stuff. my family makes pretty decent food for the most part. im terrible cuz im so judgemental about what hits my tastebuds but i come from a good culinary foundation.
thats about it. back home. drinkin. thats what i do when i dont work the next day. which is forshadowing the plans for the week forthcoming.
on deck for this weekend? i dunno. alot of alone time. maybe cook a decent meal myself.
its time to start finishin the party inside. instead of outside. :O
my dark emo days
pride and ego are low these days.
it was interesting day. my emotions are still stable and low.
went to grandmas for the grand ole christmas gathering. every year we have one of second uncles or something come dress up as santa and hand out toys to all the little kids. well most of us are grown up. but, santa couldnt show this year. so guess who played the part. meeeeeee. pictures forthcoming. not on here though. it was fun. i was told i did a good job. my brothers fiance sat on my lap. haha. so did my brother. so it was a good time. played some baseball in the front yard. got decent presents. im easy to shop for. cookbooks. got more gadgets which i wont use. chefs dont need special slicers and dicers. or really cook books either. but they make nice references. anywho.
i guess were goin back over to my grandmothers tomorrow. news to me.
so. so far the holidays are decent. kinda keep my mind off of shit.
called the thomasons today and i'll be headin over there tomorrow too to say hi. told them i got big news, referring to my product line being launched. he asked "are you gettin married"... -_- no. fuck. god all this pressure now to settle down.
random fact. if i ever lay between your thighs and move my hips back and forth, kinda like a dog waggin a tail. that means im extremely happy. i dunno why i just thought about that.
im drinkin vodka. maybe it'll help me sleep.
my parents are buggin me to cook tomorrow. good grief. i feel exploited. probably the way dave chapelle feels when he's walkin down the street and everyone asks him to say "im rick james bitch". oi.
it was interesting day. my emotions are still stable and low.
went to grandmas for the grand ole christmas gathering. every year we have one of second uncles or something come dress up as santa and hand out toys to all the little kids. well most of us are grown up. but, santa couldnt show this year. so guess who played the part. meeeeeee. pictures forthcoming. not on here though. it was fun. i was told i did a good job. my brothers fiance sat on my lap. haha. so did my brother. so it was a good time. played some baseball in the front yard. got decent presents. im easy to shop for. cookbooks. got more gadgets which i wont use. chefs dont need special slicers and dicers. or really cook books either. but they make nice references. anywho.
i guess were goin back over to my grandmothers tomorrow. news to me.
so. so far the holidays are decent. kinda keep my mind off of shit.
called the thomasons today and i'll be headin over there tomorrow too to say hi. told them i got big news, referring to my product line being launched. he asked "are you gettin married"... -_- no. fuck. god all this pressure now to settle down.
random fact. if i ever lay between your thighs and move my hips back and forth, kinda like a dog waggin a tail. that means im extremely happy. i dunno why i just thought about that.
im drinkin vodka. maybe it'll help me sleep.
my parents are buggin me to cook tomorrow. good grief. i feel exploited. probably the way dave chapelle feels when he's walkin down the street and everyone asks him to say "im rick james bitch". oi.
i have four days off. then work half a day. then off six days. i dunno what im going to do with myself. i dont really feel like going anywhere. bleh.
had an expensive ass dinner tonight. if im gonna pay that much i think i need to be impressed/blown away/not be able to make whatever it is.
time for raspberry sweet tea vodka. why not.
had an expensive ass dinner tonight. if im gonna pay that much i think i need to be impressed/blown away/not be able to make whatever it is.
time for raspberry sweet tea vodka. why not.
this is how its gonna end
things are hard right now. thanks.
my brother just asked me to be his best man. great. salt in my wounds right now. feb 6th. whoopdee doo.
i could go for some candy about now.
cooking for one is bullshit.
everything is pretty much bullshit.
focus david. focus.
i think im waiting til thursday to go home.
i think im just gonna get a more expensive home. nicer. better.
the people you care about the most. have the ability to hurt you the most. life is a bitch like that.
mafia. go to sleep. david. wake the fuck up.
my brother just asked me to be his best man. great. salt in my wounds right now. feb 6th. whoopdee doo.
i could go for some candy about now.
cooking for one is bullshit.
everything is pretty much bullshit.
focus david. focus.
i think im waiting til thursday to go home.
i think im just gonna get a more expensive home. nicer. better.
the people you care about the most. have the ability to hurt you the most. life is a bitch like that.
mafia. go to sleep. david. wake the fuck up.
0 days
i have a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. hope for the best. prepare for the worst. but i chose this war.
my eating has been funky since last week. those stupid work schedules fucked me up. im drinking more coffee now. havent had an actual balanced meal. but. im skinny. i think all that liquor friday night didnt help much either. or things current state.
got to free my creative mind today. i find that when things are emotionally crazy i have to make something. words. food. whatever. today was food. so i showed it. got some good reviews. i was pleased with how it came out. oh. and. found out how much my pay increase was. its fat. the biggest raise in the department actually. and im on salary. suck on that.
it is funny how one variable can change things. words and promises go out the window. everything spoken dissolved. we're full of shit. all of us.
i have presents to wrap. and bags to pack.
my eating has been funky since last week. those stupid work schedules fucked me up. im drinking more coffee now. havent had an actual balanced meal. but. im skinny. i think all that liquor friday night didnt help much either. or things current state.
got to free my creative mind today. i find that when things are emotionally crazy i have to make something. words. food. whatever. today was food. so i showed it. got some good reviews. i was pleased with how it came out. oh. and. found out how much my pay increase was. its fat. the biggest raise in the department actually. and im on salary. suck on that.
it is funny how one variable can change things. words and promises go out the window. everything spoken dissolved. we're full of shit. all of us.
i have presents to wrap. and bags to pack.
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dipping my feet in pools of you
you are my mechanical bride; phenobarbiedoll
i was a hand grenade that never stopped exploding, you were automatic
ok.
big changes. me and sara drove down to carpenteria for a getaway weekend. ended up breaking up instead. i feel bad. its one of the worst feelings to hurt someone like that. and absolutely horrible timing. but it makes it easier for me knowing that she is really better off. but ugh. it was a mess. a very very drunk mess. i urge everyone to try sweet tea vodka by the way. it is amazing. so we drove back the next morning. i stayed the night in merced. she stayed here. packed and left today. still has to come back to get a few things.
she told me i dont deserve to have the kind of love i want. i dont disagree with that. or anything else she said for that matter. but im going to try and be an overacheiver to get that.
i dont want to be in control. i want to be nervous. afraid. and overwhelmed. taken out of my comfort zone. and that sounds like a horrible thing. but its really not. its a beautiful thing.
shouldnt be too much going on at work this week. got some samples to make. half the crew is gonna be gone. so it'll be quiet. i'll probably be on the phone a bit. preparing for the new year. preparing for launch.
its quiet around here. but being alone is something i think i need to be more ok with.
k. i got clothes to iron. and things to move around.
i was a hand grenade that never stopped exploding, you were automatic
ok.
big changes. me and sara drove down to carpenteria for a getaway weekend. ended up breaking up instead. i feel bad. its one of the worst feelings to hurt someone like that. and absolutely horrible timing. but it makes it easier for me knowing that she is really better off. but ugh. it was a mess. a very very drunk mess. i urge everyone to try sweet tea vodka by the way. it is amazing. so we drove back the next morning. i stayed the night in merced. she stayed here. packed and left today. still has to come back to get a few things.
she told me i dont deserve to have the kind of love i want. i dont disagree with that. or anything else she said for that matter. but im going to try and be an overacheiver to get that.
i dont want to be in control. i want to be nervous. afraid. and overwhelmed. taken out of my comfort zone. and that sounds like a horrible thing. but its really not. its a beautiful thing.
shouldnt be too much going on at work this week. got some samples to make. half the crew is gonna be gone. so it'll be quiet. i'll probably be on the phone a bit. preparing for the new year. preparing for launch.
its quiet around here. but being alone is something i think i need to be more ok with.
k. i got clothes to iron. and things to move around.
David,exciting stuff
bret hart is comin back to wrestling. my favorite wrestler ever. well. tied with stone cold. how lame i come on here and write about wrestling.
not much goin on at work. tryin to get stuff brought in for my plant trial of my product. i get to come in late tomorrow. which reminds me. i just double booked myself. im supposed to be volunteering at 9. fuuuuuuuuuuuuck. well that sucks. it'll work out.
went to the mall tonight. good times.
tomorrow i leave to santa barbara. the goal of the trip. find presents. or something. relax maybe. i dunno.
things are on edge. very much.
not much goin on at work. tryin to get stuff brought in for my plant trial of my product. i get to come in late tomorrow. which reminds me. i just double booked myself. im supposed to be volunteering at 9. fuuuuuuuuuuuuck. well that sucks. it'll work out.
went to the mall tonight. good times.
tomorrow i leave to santa barbara. the goal of the trip. find presents. or something. relax maybe. i dunno.
things are on edge. very much.
i dont know when to quit
of all the houses i've looked at. bid on. etc. this one that i fell in love with came back on the market yesterday. im going to bid like twenty thousand over asking and get this shit. we'll see.
getting ready for work.
my ass fell right asleep last night. no surprise there.
i could go for a surprise.
show me who ya used to be. somebody that could fuckin impress me.
getting ready for work.
my ass fell right asleep last night. no surprise there.
i could go for a surprise.
show me who ya used to be. somebody that could fuckin impress me.
i tried to go to bed last night at seven. that shit did not work. fell asleep at 10 or a lil after. got maybe two hours of sleep. surprisingly i feel ok though. tomorrow will be wretched though. 2 am to noon. oi. but. work was pretty bad ass today. my lab test went well. so early january i'll be running a full blown plant trial on my product. showed the product to the rest of the execs that needed to see it. good reviews. im gold right now. i'm kickin ass there right now. i feel good. theres talk of me and another guy going to texas for a few days at the end of january. i can see it happening. nothing exciting though.
gotta make reservations tomorrow. i guess were goin down to the santa barbara area this weekend. should be pretty.
ambers comin over on thursday. haven't seen her in a while. gonna finish christmas shopping and get dinner. well i suppose i could do that (shop) this weekend too huh. hmmm.
what else. thats about it. i feel better than i did yesterday. i dont know whats comin down the road. but i'll be ready.
gotta make reservations tomorrow. i guess were goin down to the santa barbara area this weekend. should be pretty.
ambers comin over on thursday. haven't seen her in a while. gonna finish christmas shopping and get dinner. well i suppose i could do that (shop) this weekend too huh. hmmm.
what else. thats about it. i feel better than i did yesterday. i dont know whats comin down the road. but i'll be ready.
5@\/3 /\/\E
sharks. t-rexs. special creatures. butterflies. monsters. fuck.
what i want, cannot be bought by any amount of money. my soul was screaming at me today. more than i've ever felt before. its hard to explain. a constant anxious feeling. i feel like a drug addict thats coming clean. i dont think im living through passion. i dont think i have any at the moment. none. i need to be woken up. i need a feast. a night that is horrificly beautiful. that is intense. painful. and feels exothermic. someplace that i cannot find alone. i want to feel afraid and confident. i want to feel satisfied. quenched. i dont care if its honest. i just want to feel it. so tell me. how is this acheived? because its starting to kill me.
they pretty much announced today my product is being launched. i havent finished formulating. showing again tomorrow. tomorrow is going to be hell. gettin in at 2am. not leaving til 3pm. and then gotta be back at 2am on wednesday. fuck. im not scheduling these tests like this again.
the plan is to go somewhere this weekend. sacramento. santa barbara. napa. san fransisco. i really dont know. shrugs.
what i want, cannot be bought by any amount of money. my soul was screaming at me today. more than i've ever felt before. its hard to explain. a constant anxious feeling. i feel like a drug addict thats coming clean. i dont think im living through passion. i dont think i have any at the moment. none. i need to be woken up. i need a feast. a night that is horrificly beautiful. that is intense. painful. and feels exothermic. someplace that i cannot find alone. i want to feel afraid and confident. i want to feel satisfied. quenched. i dont care if its honest. i just want to feel it. so tell me. how is this acheived? because its starting to kill me.
they pretty much announced today my product is being launched. i havent finished formulating. showing again tomorrow. tomorrow is going to be hell. gettin in at 2am. not leaving til 3pm. and then gotta be back at 2am on wednesday. fuck. im not scheduling these tests like this again.
the plan is to go somewhere this weekend. sacramento. santa barbara. napa. san fransisco. i really dont know. shrugs.
Monday, July 07, 2008
love letters
you wash your hands like they've never been soiled....it was quite humbling i must say... to be made out to feel so small... like i wasn't good enough... what i had to offer didnt add up to shit...
but just like they say... you reap what you sow...
i find it hard to believe i felt as much for a person that has the lack of depth you so blindly hold.... you live your life with a false sense of entitlement and lack of passion... getting by with your pretty face... going through everyday you live just like you fuck, without heart.... acting like the rain never falls down on your head.... but when it all comes back around and the water starts pourin down... i bet you'll be naive enough to wonder why your make up is running.
II
II
uh ohi think i might have
yeah
yeah i did
this is round two
all the respectable people,
you might wanna leave the room
or you can just plug your ears
if you fear
i might say somethin
you dont wanna hear
cuz when i get to hittin
all the lyrics
that ive written
i wont be quittin
until ive offended
almost all the women
and when the song is over
ill head down to the bar
buy some drinks
and pound them hard
then in an hour or two
when the booze have started
to effectively spin the room
ill find a lil groupie
who thought i was real real cute
tell her i'll let her drive me home
and she can stay over too
lie to her ass
tell her we'll spoon
of course all guys know
spoon is code for bone
i got the hidden camera set up
she'll never know
put that shit on the internet
show it all my friends
point at my own ass
and say thats how you do it
boys take notes
i can teach ya stuff
you've never been shown
and when the morning comes
and im finally done
ill give her boot
n sweetly say
that was kinda fun
but you should be on your way
dont bother callin
im havin my number changed
thanks but no thanks
and thats how this one ends
now go check the internet
to make sure this wasn't pretend
www dot
your girl is in my bed
im sorry son
i just thought you should know
she wasn't at her friends
i know thats what she said
but shes over your shit
the
end
fracture (these things)
i worked out in a few days. so im gonna hit the weights pretty good here shortly. before tiffany comes over.
monday and tuesday are gonna decide if my product gets launched. i'm optimistic though because its a good product. and it beats whats out there now. but im biased too. everyone else seems to agree so far tho.
things are a lil broken in the home. im neglectful. most of the time. which isn't a good thing. why. i dont know. when did my blood start running cold? because this wasnt always the case. let me tell you. i can see a crossroads coming down the path soon. you either warm up. or get left in the cold.
have battlescars that you cannot see
but you can hear them
in my voice
feel them
in my touch
that drag me down
all too much
monday and tuesday are gonna decide if my product gets launched. i'm optimistic though because its a good product. and it beats whats out there now. but im biased too. everyone else seems to agree so far tho.
things are a lil broken in the home. im neglectful. most of the time. which isn't a good thing. why. i dont know. when did my blood start running cold? because this wasnt always the case. let me tell you. i can see a crossroads coming down the path soon. you either warm up. or get left in the cold.
have battlescars that you cannot see
but you can hear them
in my voice
feel them
in my touch
that drag me down
all too much