and all he got in return was (pain)

everytime i grasp a dream another slips through my fingers....

today... there was a hour and a half whirlwind... intense... i went from incredibly shitty... to incredibly stressed... to incredibly overwhelmed... with the end result being this... i had an idea when i first got to this company... of a caffeinated product... it took a few tries.. but i successfully created one... and showed it to the owner today... he said "lets launch it march"...................................... oh. fuck. did i just create a food item thats going to be launched nationwide... i believe so. well i hope so. we have testing and such to do. but the CEO loves the idea.... he wants me to show it in vegas in a couple weeks but thats not doable... but i really really hope this goes through... this... right here... is what ive wanted... are you proud now?

and that was today. came back to paso tonight. told my parents the nice news. then drove to slo and went to a concert. with mike. in which its been yeaaaaaaaaaars since ive seen... and it was refreshing to see him. hasnt changed too much from what i can tell. met the wife. she's good people. and im a good judge of character. i can just tell right away with some people. im quite judgemental. heh. soooo we'll all hangout tomorrow. also going out with Christina. i kinda wanna go fishing with my dad sunday. in the ocean. but i have to get up at 4am. i dunno. i still need to see kristina and haley. i dunno how im going to work all of this out. i wish all my friends were over there. life would be quite different. i mean, as much as ive gotten established in the valley and done good for myself, my soul is still here. its not like im not myself in fresno, its just, different.

i'm sorree. im uglee.

my parents always have such good food here. mmm.