decadent shit and rival nights

this weekend was pretty fuckin good. i mean, its up there. start with the wedding. it was a really small ceremony. we were privileged to be invited. i thought i was gonna get all mushy but didnt really. i was thinking what i want and dont want at my wedding. whenever the hell that is. had a little social anxiety. danced for half a song. and it was some good stuff. then drove over to the hotel. excuse me, resort. and holy shit was that something else. the place is gated and they check to see if you even belong there at the gate. i guess thats what six hundred dollars gets ya. drive up this long ass drive way through hills to the check in spot. did that. then drove another mile up the hill to our room. which looked like apartments. the view was pretty good. the room was pretty awesome. two fireplaces. wood floors. six dollar m&m's. i'll leave out all the "intimate" stuff but that was good too. lol. got up this morning. sat out on the balcony and listened to all the Lamborghinis and Ferraris go through the hills. there was a car show in town. anyway. it feels good stayin at places like that. dining with the snot heads and all that. i sat out there thinking why the fuck am i living in fresno. me n this girl could pack up and live on the coast and be able to make it just fine i think. but i hate fresno i mean. it is what it is. and its not good lol. why stay five years? i think i'd be just as fine stayin here two. i dunno. we'll see how it goes. k back to my weekend story. went to carmel downtown. thats a neat little town. didnt explore really just walked down to the beach and back. that beach is pretty cool. white sands. fancy houses on the hills. looked very east coast. god what am i doing here. then went kayaking again in monterey. not as many animals as out as there was last time and the battery died on the camera halfway through which was a bummer but got plenty of pics from this weekend. which i will upload now. not even looking forward to going to work tomorrow. ugh.