i thought ive blogged since ive been home. apparently not.
spent a couple hours yesterday fighting with my espresso machine. but got it fixed and im happy about that.
eating the other chicago pizza tonight.
did some cardio today. poo on my knee. stationary bike hello.
not excited about going to work tomorrow. but back to reality.
no games.
the new rob zombie album is pretty bleh.
i think next saturday im goin over to merced to see tiffany. thats my plan. besides gettin my oil changed. maybe even my transmission too. that needs to be done. im gonn look for some deals online.
spent a couple hours yesterday fighting with my espresso machine. but got it fixed and im happy about that.
eating the other chicago pizza tonight.
did some cardio today. poo on my knee. stationary bike hello.
not excited about going to work tomorrow. but back to reality.
no games.
the new rob zombie album is pretty bleh.
i think next saturday im goin over to merced to see tiffany. thats my plan. besides gettin my oil changed. maybe even my transmission too. that needs to be done. im gonn look for some deals online.
she had clean cut collar bones
hips i could not escape
how do you escape the nightmares?
write them out
everything you see
until they eventually leave
i couldn't say goodbye
couldn't picture her
not in my life
i cant express my feelings
maybe ill just describe them
with a thousand stories
of a love lost
thats shadowed with lies
hands i couldnt keep to myself
lips i couldnt keep to myself
kiss me a hundred times
i never would tell
blehhhh im not good at writing like this anymore
hips i could not escape
how do you escape the nightmares?
write them out
everything you see
until they eventually leave
i couldn't say goodbye
couldn't picture her
not in my life
i cant express my feelings
maybe ill just describe them
with a thousand stories
of a love lost
thats shadowed with lies
hands i couldnt keep to myself
lips i couldnt keep to myself
kiss me a hundred times
i never would tell
blehhhh im not good at writing like this anymore
the waiting game
so lets see. tomorrow i got three hours between class and when i can check in at the airport. two hour flight. then wait another two and a half hours in dallas. and then a four hour flight home. geeze. thats alot of hours.
i guess im ready to come home. ive had enough cold weather. not ready to go back to work next week though. but at least in three weeks im off to phoenix. this kinda gives me the travel bug. maybe ill take a vacation in april or something.
goin to look at houses on saturday. ill get one someday.
i need to go see tiffany soon.
took pictures today. they came out good.
done.
i guess im ready to come home. ive had enough cold weather. not ready to go back to work next week though. but at least in three weeks im off to phoenix. this kinda gives me the travel bug. maybe ill take a vacation in april or something.
goin to look at houses on saturday. ill get one someday.
i need to go see tiffany soon.
took pictures today. they came out good.
done.
i actually learned stuff today. finally. but my coworkers have left and im on my own now.
its still cold.
the trex is hungry. ive noticed that when i dont dwell on it its not as bad. hm.
tomorrow im goin over to the campus to take pictures and buy some stuff.
lookin forward to going home and drinking.
thats it.
its still cold.
the trex is hungry. ive noticed that when i dont dwell on it its not as bad. hm.
tomorrow im goin over to the campus to take pictures and buy some stuff.
lookin forward to going home and drinking.
thats it.
its still cold. theres still snow everywhere.
gonna be on my own starting tomorrow.
i like the scenery. things just seem simpler here. not as exciting for sure. but pretty. about the same for the females i think. my plans for the next couple evenings. i dunno. tomorrow im gonna go back down to the gym. ran 3/4 mile today and felt ok. so probably will run at least one tomorrow. thursday im gonna walk around campus. take pictures. i told people id pick up stuff for them. but there not really shit here. i dunno.
gonna be on my own starting tomorrow.
i like the scenery. things just seem simpler here. not as exciting for sure. but pretty. about the same for the females i think. my plans for the next couple evenings. i dunno. tomorrow im gonna go back down to the gym. ran 3/4 mile today and felt ok. so probably will run at least one tomorrow. thursday im gonna walk around campus. take pictures. i told people id pick up stuff for them. but there not really shit here. i dunno.
im gonna start wearin a bullet proof vest to work. oh shit. maybe at home too. but on the good side i'm givin people in high places "hope for the future". and thats all i gotta say about that.
it'll be nice to be outta the office and lab for a week. travel. to cold temperatures. that match the temperature of my heart.
roller derby tomorrow. i think. and packing.
it'll be an early bed night. i couldnt sleep last night.
i wish i had something interesting to say. im half the man i used to be.
it'll be nice to be outta the office and lab for a week. travel. to cold temperatures. that match the temperature of my heart.
roller derby tomorrow. i think. and packing.
it'll be an early bed night. i couldnt sleep last night.
i wish i had something interesting to say. im half the man i used to be.
today feels like a friday. probably cuz i went out and drank tonight. oops. at a bar. oops. not my style. for sure. but you gotta play the game.
im tired now. and its early.
not working tomorrow night now. yay. now i can drink the night away.
havent worked out in a few days. yuck.
everything else is whatever.
im tired now. and its early.
not working tomorrow night now. yay. now i can drink the night away.
havent worked out in a few days. yuck.
everything else is whatever.
odds and ends
espresso machine here. delicious. chicago pizza arrived. delicious. rearranged the kitchen.
computer fixed. hopefully. 108 dollars later. i need some more money.
finding my niche.
i need more room in my apartment.
didnt work out today. too many other things that needed to be taken care of.
damn that pizza is good.
i dont ask for much. shit. shakes head.
the cat has disappeared. its been like 5 or 6 days. hmmm.
got my car detailed today. not bad for twenty bucks. and it smells good.
tryin to upgrade my life.
computer fixed. hopefully. 108 dollars later. i need some more money.
finding my niche.
i need more room in my apartment.
didnt work out today. too many other things that needed to be taken care of.
damn that pizza is good.
i dont ask for much. shit. shakes head.
the cat has disappeared. its been like 5 or 6 days. hmmm.
got my car detailed today. not bad for twenty bucks. and it smells good.
tryin to upgrade my life.
got a knee brace. we'll see if that helps. i kinda doubt it.
espresso machine should be here tomorrow. stoked. along with pizza straight from chicago. stoked.
have to work friday night. suuuuuucks. there goes my drinkin. and im not saturday night either cuz i gotta be at the airport sunday morning cuz my flight leaves at 6:15 am. wtf.
showed a product today to the big man. he liked it. so im gonna show it to everyone. probably when i get back from kansas.
thats it.
espresso machine should be here tomorrow. stoked. along with pizza straight from chicago. stoked.
have to work friday night. suuuuuucks. there goes my drinkin. and im not saturday night either cuz i gotta be at the airport sunday morning cuz my flight leaves at 6:15 am. wtf.
showed a product today to the big man. he liked it. so im gonna show it to everyone. probably when i get back from kansas.
thats it.
dances with wolves
"should we go inside? gettin kinda wet out here..."
"no, stand out here and kiss me. til we're drenched."
ever have certain moments instantly hit the bottom of your soul? here's one.
we ran into the house shortly after. couldn't take my hands off her. and her off me. until we were completely undressed. and then i just stopped. and stared.
"no, stand out here and kiss me. til we're drenched."
ever have certain moments instantly hit the bottom of your soul? here's one.
we ran into the house shortly after. couldn't take my hands off her. and her off me. until we were completely undressed. and then i just stopped. and stared.
so fulllllll. i feel disappointed for letting myself eat all that food. which makes me think i might be getting a complex.
spent over four hundred dollars on a espresso maker. having beautiful coffee every morning is something to be happy about. good bye shit coffee.
not sure what this week will bring at work. hopefully its relaxed.
love stories just make me bleh now.
i forget what its like to feel happy.
spent over four hundred dollars on a espresso maker. having beautiful coffee every morning is something to be happy about. good bye shit coffee.
not sure what this week will bring at work. hopefully its relaxed.
love stories just make me bleh now.
i forget what its like to feel happy.
everything you ever wanted?
today was lame at work. was there at 5am. its funny how the people in different departments have different mind sets. its like high school i swear. you have jocks. nerds. freaks. burnouts. etc etc. in the food manufacturing business you have r&d, production, qa, marketing. its just a constant battle. i dont know. hard to explain.
learning the intricacies of the new phone.
relaxing and doing nothing tonight. cleaned house when i got home.
seeing happy couples on tv makes me want to vomit.
im thinner than ive been in a really long time i think. hopefully my knee stops hurting so i can run again. maybe sunday.
not a whole lot else.
learning the intricacies of the new phone.
relaxing and doing nothing tonight. cleaned house when i got home.
seeing happy couples on tv makes me want to vomit.
im thinner than ive been in a really long time i think. hopefully my knee stops hurting so i can run again. maybe sunday.
not a whole lot else.
tired.
got my iphone today. its alright. gonna cancel my other phone soon.
what else. cutting went 50/50 today. didnt care for the new idea. which wasnt mine. so were sticking with original. despite its inefficiencies. so its fine.
gotta get up at 330am tomorrow. oi. lots of coffee for me. if i have time. i actually have to work. wtf. at least i'll get to leave early. hopefully.
not sure what exactly the plan is for this weekend. i know this house is gonna get cleaned. i know that much.
got my iphone today. its alright. gonna cancel my other phone soon.
what else. cutting went 50/50 today. didnt care for the new idea. which wasnt mine. so were sticking with original. despite its inefficiencies. so its fine.
gotta get up at 330am tomorrow. oi. lots of coffee for me. if i have time. i actually have to work. wtf. at least i'll get to leave early. hopefully.
not sure what exactly the plan is for this weekend. i know this house is gonna get cleaned. i know that much.
i need to give specific people access to this.
i didnt get my coffee machine. by some weird thing. i was bummed. i cant fucking give away my own money right now. how frustrating is that.
went jogging. and my knee blew up. so i limped like half a mile back to my car. i dunno what i did its weird. i probably should have rested another couple days.
unhappy at the moment. what else is newwwww. i leave in eleven days to kansas. should be interesting. i need to find what there is to do in that town.
got a reformulation showing tomorrow. hopefully it goes ok. trying to iron out all the wrinkles people have. set me free. let me be me.
let me be me.
i didnt get my coffee machine. by some weird thing. i was bummed. i cant fucking give away my own money right now. how frustrating is that.
went jogging. and my knee blew up. so i limped like half a mile back to my car. i dunno what i did its weird. i probably should have rested another couple days.
unhappy at the moment. what else is newwwww. i leave in eleven days to kansas. should be interesting. i need to find what there is to do in that town.
got a reformulation showing tomorrow. hopefully it goes ok. trying to iron out all the wrinkles people have. set me free. let me be me.
let me be me.
so. yesterday. two dots connected. for the first time. do this and i wont be mad at you. i do it. oh, still mad. frustration. flash back sets in. im sitting on my computer, screaming at instant messenger. nothing i ever do is good enough. theres always something. quite tired of feeling like less. this is how its gonna be. this is who i am. is it good enough.
Dances with wolves
as i turned onto my street i noticed your car right away... sticking out like a sore thumb... i pulled into my drive way and there you were... getting out of the car it was raining about as hard as my heart was beating... and you just stood there... with a red hoodie but you wore it down... letting the rain drag the mascara down your face you simply stared at me... until you finally said, "i'm ready to come home now"....
fixed.
so everything that broke down friday is hopefully fixed.
got new prototypes up and running. showing at the end of the week i think. consumer tests at beginning of next month.
getting my iphone.
got off early.
jogged a couple miles around quail lakes. gonna try to do cardio more often.
feel good. good day.
got new prototypes up and running. showing at the end of the week i think. consumer tests at beginning of next month.
getting my iphone.
got off early.
jogged a couple miles around quail lakes. gonna try to do cardio more often.
feel good. good day.
i feel sick. drink your protein david.
this weekend was bleh. wedding was what it was. i thought id be jealous. but. there really wasnt much to be envious of. i have a vision/delusion of grandeur. someday.
i dont really want to go to work tomorrow.
not much to be excited about.
and thats how things are.
this weekend was bleh. wedding was what it was. i thought id be jealous. but. there really wasnt much to be envious of. i have a vision/delusion of grandeur. someday.
i dont really want to go to work tomorrow.
not much to be excited about.
and thats how things are.
things.fall.apart.
my product is on the brink of going nowhere. i have to reformulate. fast. or else.
everything else is failing.
its hot in this house.
no iphone.
tomorrow is a sham. people who want the real thing should have it.
5@^3 W3
everything else is failing.
its hot in this house.
no iphone.
tomorrow is a sham. people who want the real thing should have it.
5@^3 W3
worked. worked out. saw the baby. sushi. office. tired.
tomorrow is my second big test at work people are talkin about. i dont have much confidence it will work. but like someone told me today "failure is something you can learn from" or something like that. and i already know that. so we'll see how it goes.
lets expand on the baby thing a little. i want a family. lol. i do. id be perfectly happy settling down real soon. and people say im crazy. but ive been making a point of proving people wrong lately. doubt me.
gotta get packed for the big weekend.
i still believe. i still believe. i can set you free.
tomorrow is my second big test at work people are talkin about. i dont have much confidence it will work. but like someone told me today "failure is something you can learn from" or something like that. and i already know that. so we'll see how it goes.
lets expand on the baby thing a little. i want a family. lol. i do. id be perfectly happy settling down real soon. and people say im crazy. but ive been making a point of proving people wrong lately. doubt me.
gotta get packed for the big weekend.
i still believe. i still believe. i can set you free.
right job, wrong time
work. work out. eat. tv. thats my days.
got a call today about a job. in seattle. paid relocation. doin the same thing i am now for 75k. the add online said 5 years experience but the lady i talked to didnt seem to care. doin the same thing i am now but for cake mix and stuff. wow. the job i want at awesome pay at the place i wanna live. but im not ready. i told myself five years here. oiiiii.
big weekend. wedding. superbowl. guess im goin down friday. and i think im gonna stay til sunday. cuz i dont wanna watch the super bowl alone here.
no baby today.
im gettin 2400 dollars back for my taxes. should be in my account in ten days. what am i gonna do with that money. a trip would be nice. so would puttin towards my house. i dunno. we'll see. i wanna get myself something nice. hey about that coffee maker i wanted. hmmm.
thats it.
got a call today about a job. in seattle. paid relocation. doin the same thing i am now for 75k. the add online said 5 years experience but the lady i talked to didnt seem to care. doin the same thing i am now but for cake mix and stuff. wow. the job i want at awesome pay at the place i wanna live. but im not ready. i told myself five years here. oiiiii.
big weekend. wedding. superbowl. guess im goin down friday. and i think im gonna stay til sunday. cuz i dont wanna watch the super bowl alone here.
no baby today.
im gettin 2400 dollars back for my taxes. should be in my account in ten days. what am i gonna do with that money. a trip would be nice. so would puttin towards my house. i dunno. we'll see. i wanna get myself something nice. hey about that coffee maker i wanted. hmmm.
thats it.
another day goes by
work work.
tattoo is tender but feels good.
gonna go grocery shopping. on the search for healthy food. anything to keep my tummy where it is or better than it is now. i think all the sushi has been helping. but anything in excess is always bad.
and an exciting night of wrestling.
looked at a couple houses today. they were caca.
tattoo is tender but feels good.
gonna go grocery shopping. on the search for healthy food. anything to keep my tummy where it is or better than it is now. i think all the sushi has been helping. but anything in excess is always bad.
and an exciting night of wrestling.
looked at a couple houses today. they were caca.