thats my new nickname at work. ha. i kinda like it.
my showing went well today. they mentioned maybe showing one of my products to costco. thatd be pretty fancy. dont ya think?
other than that. meh. whatever.
art & fallacies
today was blah. but whatever. tomorrow though. tomorrows kinda big. ive been prototyping for the past two weeks on a couple products. just practicing. and when i was ready i was going to show them. well tomorrow at 3 i have a "concept showing" as we call it in the industry. i feel good that they well be at least decently received. im sure they could be better. but im not at the skill level yet there. and i wont be for quite a while. but we'll see how it goes. this is only my first one.
i feel pumped.
tomorrow is sweatshirt day.
friday is casual friday.
and thats about it.
i feel pumped.
tomorrow is sweatshirt day.
friday is casual friday.
and thats about it.
falling (into place)
very boring day at work.
came home and worked out.
and thats about it.
hotel reservations confirmed for vegas. skeet skeet. luis really wants to drag me to a strip club. i just dont see the appeal of these things. why would i wanna pay for that crap when i would just get teased. i dunno. i mean. if that shit was free we have a different story. i dunno.
its gonna be coolin off. im very happy about that.
and thats about it.
came home and worked out.
and thats about it.
hotel reservations confirmed for vegas. skeet skeet. luis really wants to drag me to a strip club. i just dont see the appeal of these things. why would i wanna pay for that crap when i would just get teased. i dunno. i mean. if that shit was free we have a different story. i dunno.
its gonna be coolin off. im very happy about that.
and thats about it.
projects and pills
i take pills. alot of pills. no not those kind. well, sometimes those kind. every day i start off with 1 prilosec for my acid reflux and 1 multi vitamin for good health. then i drink my protein shake for breakfast. and with that protein shake i take 4 amino acid supplements. this help gets the protein into the muscles. i go to work. on my drive home i take 2 NOS boosters. this helps but enriched blood into your muscles making them bigger. when i get home i work out. drink another protein shake with 4 more amino acid supplements and 2 more NOS boosters. and at night time before bed i take 2 melatonin to help me sleep. lets add this up.... 1+1+4+2+4+2+2= 16. Thats alot kids. don't be like that. is all of that shit helping? thats debatable. i think the creatine and testosterone has worked the best so far. in my opinion.
i made a bomb fuckin ass sauce tonight. i still got it. i mean that shit was delicious. not to toot my horn or anything. but honk honk.
projects are things to do that take a significant amount of time to accomplish. i have projects at work. and i have projects not at work.
tool academy is on tonight. assholes that are worse than me. that me becoming debatable now a days who the fuck knows.
i might not work all five days this week. the plant is closed thursday and friday and the following monday too i believe. now on these days its not unusual for the food techs not to show up. damn i need to be put on salary.
theres a decent band playin in modesto on thursday. but that might be alot of driving after work.
zombies ate my neighbors is a bad ass snes game. lion king is very difficult. and its based on a childrens movie. what kind of shit is that.
i made a bomb fuckin ass sauce tonight. i still got it. i mean that shit was delicious. not to toot my horn or anything. but honk honk.
projects are things to do that take a significant amount of time to accomplish. i have projects at work. and i have projects not at work.
tool academy is on tonight. assholes that are worse than me. that me becoming debatable now a days who the fuck knows.
i might not work all five days this week. the plant is closed thursday and friday and the following monday too i believe. now on these days its not unusual for the food techs not to show up. damn i need to be put on salary.
theres a decent band playin in modesto on thursday. but that might be alot of driving after work.
zombies ate my neighbors is a bad ass snes game. lion king is very difficult. and its based on a childrens movie. what kind of shit is that.
meet me in virginia
i think i wanna go. in decemberish. after i get my bonus. we'll see how it plays out. i said i was gonna go one day. and then seems about the right time.
the new breaking benjamin album is kinda lame.
tomorrow is football day.
i have two writings i need to finish.
im excited about next weekend.
drank alot of cranberry juice today.
i hold my breath when i breathe.
hard candy is a twisted movie.
hey angel. fly over.
the new breaking benjamin album is kinda lame.
tomorrow is football day.
i have two writings i need to finish.
im excited about next weekend.
drank alot of cranberry juice today.
i hold my breath when i breathe.
hard candy is a twisted movie.
hey angel. fly over.
they say i have more than i could ever need
and who the hell am i to be so unhappy
they say if i keep livin like a do
hell will be comin round for me soon
i say ive been through it once
and i pulled through
they say i cannot be trusted
that pale skin
mixed with a lil gin
wears my judgement thin
they say i go about the things the wrong way
thou who throws the first stone
shall be judged all the same
well i
im the jury today
im so tired
listening to what they have to say
it doesnt matter
never have
never will
tell me
what you have to say
what you think
the feeling you have
when i leave
do you miss me
the next day
i say
take that chance
fall into my arms again
everything i ever promised
will come true this time
and who the hell am i to be so unhappy
they say if i keep livin like a do
hell will be comin round for me soon
i say ive been through it once
and i pulled through
they say i cannot be trusted
that pale skin
mixed with a lil gin
wears my judgement thin
they say i go about the things the wrong way
thou who throws the first stone
shall be judged all the same
well i
im the jury today
im so tired
listening to what they have to say
it doesnt matter
never have
never will
tell me
what you have to say
what you think
the feeling you have
when i leave
do you miss me
the next day
i say
take that chance
fall into my arms again
everything i ever promised
will come true this time
heads in danger (out of a foxhole)
they say i have more than i could ever need... and who the hell am i to be so unhappy...
thats a start...
good day at work.
i havent been drunk in two weeks. i think i wanna do that tonight.
they say if i keep livin like a do, hell will be comin round for me soon... i say ive been through it once, and i pulled through...
im watching an old mike tyson fight... its kinda neat...
my wrist still hurts...
helped jason moved furniture last night...
its sad theres no great fighters now a days... no great figures... no great leaders... no great lovers... even architecture isnt what it used to be...
and i got plans to sleep in tomorrow.
thats a start...
good day at work.
i havent been drunk in two weeks. i think i wanna do that tonight.
they say if i keep livin like a do, hell will be comin round for me soon... i say ive been through it once, and i pulled through...
im watching an old mike tyson fight... its kinda neat...
my wrist still hurts...
helped jason moved furniture last night...
its sad theres no great fighters now a days... no great figures... no great leaders... no great lovers... even architecture isnt what it used to be...
and i got plans to sleep in tomorrow.
im not that kind of asshole
things change rather quickly. sometimes for the good. sometimes for the worst. it can be as quick as a car accident. or a text message. a few months ago i was bustin my ass to graduate. today im at a fancy ass luncheon with the corporate crowd eating filet mignon for lunch and toasting with champagne. life is beautiful every now and then. got to see our commercial coming out in march. i helped make the product thats used. kinda neat. one of my projects was mentioned in the presentation. nice. and i got to meet some interesting people. which was one part of the job i wasnt expecting. all these salesman and business people that are in your field. you kinda see the same people over and over again throughout the years ive picked up. all out of our guys are friends with these sales people and go out drinkin and stuff with them when in town. but anyway im gettin off track. i also got my first samples in this week. packages. yay. i call someone and say hey im lookin for this would you send me some. for free lol. and they say hell yeah cuz they wanna sell you their stuff later on if you use it in a product. so they send you whatever your lookin for whether its cilantro oil, or a sodium reduction agent. and you get to play with it. anyway. i digress.
for the third and a half time today my offer did not get accepted. im very frustrated. im bidding six or seven thousand over asking price to start and im not getting countered back. all these assholes paying cash for houses in my price range. but. the search continues. im not gonna get something im not comfortable with just cuz this glass ceiling deadline is fastly approaching. we'll see how it goes. hopefully they extend the thing.
not sure what im doing this weekend. nothing i guess. willhoite. coffee tomorrow?
oh it looks like i may not be going to chicago afterall. ugh but definately ill be in vegas. so maybe ill be here for halloween. party? get yo freak on.
for the third and a half time today my offer did not get accepted. im very frustrated. im bidding six or seven thousand over asking price to start and im not getting countered back. all these assholes paying cash for houses in my price range. but. the search continues. im not gonna get something im not comfortable with just cuz this glass ceiling deadline is fastly approaching. we'll see how it goes. hopefully they extend the thing.
not sure what im doing this weekend. nothing i guess. willhoite. coffee tomorrow?
oh it looks like i may not be going to chicago afterall. ugh but definately ill be in vegas. so maybe ill be here for halloween. party? get yo freak on.
long day. worked. went on an ift plant tour then dinner. was sittin around the table with everyone from work. havin a beer. then i had to head out early. to look at a house. which is pretty good. so i put in an offer. its gettin too late in the game. so we'll see how it goes.
tomorrow is oooooooooootep. bring out your dead. here comes the warheaaaaaaaaad.
tomorrow is oooooooooootep. bring out your dead. here comes the warheaaaaaaaaad.
things are fucked.
things are failing.
things are not being purchased.
things are losing in the fourth quarter.
somethings gotta give.
i woke up pissed off this morning. said i was gonna kick the world in the teeth today. didnt work as i planned. and just for entertainment/something new, one block from work today i switched my gar into triptronic transmission. just to try it. cuz i hadn't before. and i drove the car around the block once extra today. just something new.
i do things my way. i'll listen to advice. but thats pretty much all i do. by any means neccessary. im not goin after moral victories here.
tickets to virginia. 138 dollars. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
things are failing.
things are not being purchased.
things are losing in the fourth quarter.
somethings gotta give.
i woke up pissed off this morning. said i was gonna kick the world in the teeth today. didnt work as i planned. and just for entertainment/something new, one block from work today i switched my gar into triptronic transmission. just to try it. cuz i hadn't before. and i drove the car around the block once extra today. just something new.
i do things my way. i'll listen to advice. but thats pretty much all i do. by any means neccessary. im not goin after moral victories here.
tickets to virginia. 138 dollars. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
systems management and failure
a break from the daily grind. would be kind.
apparently i don't ask about people's day.
... no, it wasn't a kiss... i whispered secrets, dreams, and hopes... into her mouth... and she took them in... holding it all close to her heart... then i pulled her into me... wrapped my arms around her... running the backs of my fingernails softly down her shoulder... i didnt let go... and there we were... i close my eyes.... and all i see.... and all i see is... you.
want your.
need your.
life.
feed it to me.
apparently i don't ask about people's day.
... no, it wasn't a kiss... i whispered secrets, dreams, and hopes... into her mouth... and she took them in... holding it all close to her heart... then i pulled her into me... wrapped my arms around her... running the backs of my fingernails softly down her shoulder... i didnt let go... and there we were... i close my eyes.... and all i see.... and all i see is... you.
want your.
need your.
life.
feed it to me.
words are weapons
not much goin on.
gettin some projects at work. work work work. i still like my job.
goin up north for the weekend. somewhere. im not really sure.
everything else is fine i guess. shrugs.
i still need a fuckin haircut.
happy to be leavin the state next month. someday id like to travel that far for fun. with someone.
i need to be inspired to be a better person. well, not that im not right now. i dunno.
bored.
gettin some projects at work. work work work. i still like my job.
goin up north for the weekend. somewhere. im not really sure.
everything else is fine i guess. shrugs.
i still need a fuckin haircut.
happy to be leavin the state next month. someday id like to travel that far for fun. with someone.
i need to be inspired to be a better person. well, not that im not right now. i dunno.
bored.
a perfect life
the weather this morning was amazing. the smell of rain. the wetness on my feet as i stepped out onto my balcony. beautiful.
did actual work today. im evaluating stuff. settin up meetin stuff. my hunger there is being fed at the moment. the best part of my work day? not only am i going to vegas next month for four days. but the following week ill be in chicago for five days. :) at a food expo. so kind of kickback time. aaaaand the nations best molecular gastronomy restaurant is located here i believe. wylie dufrane's restaurant WD 50. im gonna go to that shit. i need to get my parents suitcase.
i could have the world by the balls and still be unhappy. i wouldnt argue with that point. cuz i kinda do now.
i thought i was having vegetable lasagna for dinner. but apparently not.
i couldnt sleep for shit last night. i had been up late the following four nights due to plant trials and the weekend so i rolled around in bed for three hours before knocking out. then i had a dream that i bought my house. and some people came into it kind of like the strangers movie. ive had a dream like this a few times. trying to keep them out. but i was eventually stabbed in the stomach and died. ouch.
i put another couple pounds on. woot woot.
the final ascent, starts now.
did actual work today. im evaluating stuff. settin up meetin stuff. my hunger there is being fed at the moment. the best part of my work day? not only am i going to vegas next month for four days. but the following week ill be in chicago for five days. :) at a food expo. so kind of kickback time. aaaaand the nations best molecular gastronomy restaurant is located here i believe. wylie dufrane's restaurant WD 50. im gonna go to that shit. i need to get my parents suitcase.
i could have the world by the balls and still be unhappy. i wouldnt argue with that point. cuz i kinda do now.
i thought i was having vegetable lasagna for dinner. but apparently not.
i couldnt sleep for shit last night. i had been up late the following four nights due to plant trials and the weekend so i rolled around in bed for three hours before knocking out. then i had a dream that i bought my house. and some people came into it kind of like the strangers movie. ive had a dream like this a few times. trying to keep them out. but i was eventually stabbed in the stomach and died. ouch.
i put another couple pounds on. woot woot.
the final ascent, starts now.
strings attached
good, good weekend. what will the next hold.
sat around most of the day. had a good work out. i feel strong.
found some houses online. hopefully i can go see some tomorrow.
work should be good this week. continuing to grow.
i started my rap. need to finish it.
im gonna get everything i want. just wait and see.
sat around most of the day. had a good work out. i feel strong.
found some houses online. hopefully i can go see some tomorrow.
work should be good this week. continuing to grow.
i started my rap. need to finish it.
im gonna get everything i want. just wait and see.
black widows and praying mantis'
oi. i shouldn't have eaten those bacon and mushrooms. they were both kinda iffy.
football. all. fuckin. day.
i need a haircut.
do you ever have moments in life, where you're complete. happy. full. satisfied. content. every once in a while i get those. i forget what its like sometimes. but when i get them its like oh yeah. then it makes everything else feel not real almost. i want one of those.
ps. i hate bags of trash sitting in the corner.
football. all. fuckin. day.
i need a haircut.
do you ever have moments in life, where you're complete. happy. full. satisfied. content. every once in a while i get those. i forget what its like sometimes. but when i get them its like oh yeah. then it makes everything else feel not real almost. i want one of those.
ps. i hate bags of trash sitting in the corner.
my rap
huh
yeah
this is my rap
hold on
let me think of
how to make this start
alright
here we go
punchin my keyboard
like a loud mouth whore
this is me
wantin more
gettin drunk on V
but this shit
just aint hittin me
maybe i
can shoot it into my veins
maybe then
it might
hit my brain
maybe i
could make some mistakes
if you dont
hit the brakes
and maybe then
our life would be made
why the fuck did you invite me here
this party is lame
all the girls here
should be locked back in their cage
this shit is like a zoo
i even had to pay
dont feed the animals
just stay outta their way
after about an hour
i stopped in my tracks
found a beauty in the beasts
and baby had back
but she was with some guy
i thought to myself
fuck it
im gonna say hi
he said whoa son
your talkin to my girl
i told him no
yours is over there
the one that escaped from sea world
and then i asked this girl
what do you see in him
im a technologist
hes just a technician
he'll just take you places
that you've already been
look doll
this isnt a place you want to stay
lets go back to my place
ill fix you a drink
while you add me on myspace
i got
satin sheets
shag carpeting
and once your over
you might not wanna leave
quite honestly
that'd be ok with me
so that is the end of this story
im sorry if it was kind of boring
but i left with the best looking girl of the party
and i dont really know
quite how to finish this
soooo
fuck it
yeah
this is my rap
hold on
let me think of
how to make this start
alright
here we go
punchin my keyboard
like a loud mouth whore
this is me
wantin more
gettin drunk on V
but this shit
just aint hittin me
maybe i
can shoot it into my veins
maybe then
it might
hit my brain
maybe i
could make some mistakes
if you dont
hit the brakes
and maybe then
our life would be made
why the fuck did you invite me here
this party is lame
all the girls here
should be locked back in their cage
this shit is like a zoo
i even had to pay
dont feed the animals
just stay outta their way
after about an hour
i stopped in my tracks
found a beauty in the beasts
and baby had back
but she was with some guy
i thought to myself
fuck it
im gonna say hi
he said whoa son
your talkin to my girl
i told him no
yours is over there
the one that escaped from sea world
and then i asked this girl
what do you see in him
im a technologist
hes just a technician
he'll just take you places
that you've already been
look doll
this isnt a place you want to stay
lets go back to my place
ill fix you a drink
while you add me on myspace
i got
satin sheets
shag carpeting
and once your over
you might not wanna leave
quite honestly
that'd be ok with me
so that is the end of this story
im sorry if it was kind of boring
but i left with the best looking girl of the party
and i dont really know
quite how to finish this
soooo
fuck it
this goddamned war
bad news i didnt get my house again. im quite upset about it.
good news is im goin to vegas for a few days next month.
bad news is ive plateaued.
good news is im drinkin it away.
bad news is i dont feel like drinking.
bad news is i dont feel like doing much of anything.
good news? give me some.
how about i believe in karma. sorta. everything always evens out is what i believe. so i have this loaded up pile of dog shit on my life and soul. now would be a good time for something to wash it all away. something good.
and thats all i gotta say about that.
good news is im goin to vegas for a few days next month.
bad news is ive plateaued.
good news is im drinkin it away.
bad news is i dont feel like drinking.
bad news is i dont feel like doing much of anything.
good news? give me some.
how about i believe in karma. sorta. everything always evens out is what i believe. so i have this loaded up pile of dog shit on my life and soul. now would be a good time for something to wash it all away. something good.
and thats all i gotta say about that.
ive been sharpening my teeth
while waiting in the wings
ive been growing in size and shape
preparing to break free
spent a hundred days in hell
and six climbing to get out
broke the backs
of the weak
joined the flock
and ate the sheep
i went shepard unto stone
messiah down to bone
became the monster
that i hate
broke the mirror
and joined the ranks
served on the lines
of all who were lost
knew where i was standing
and endured multiple shots
i gathered a hunger
that can be quenched by no god
and the only place that i can win
is the very which i have lost
with a broken heart
and strong armor
im ready to fight again
against you
for you
until the very end
and i
break you
like bread
enjoying my
communion feast
ive waited
so long
to taste you
while waiting in the wings
ive been growing in size and shape
preparing to break free
spent a hundred days in hell
and six climbing to get out
broke the backs
of the weak
joined the flock
and ate the sheep
i went shepard unto stone
messiah down to bone
became the monster
that i hate
broke the mirror
and joined the ranks
served on the lines
of all who were lost
knew where i was standing
and endured multiple shots
i gathered a hunger
that can be quenched by no god
and the only place that i can win
is the very which i have lost
with a broken heart
and strong armor
im ready to fight again
against you
for you
until the very end
and i
break you
like bread
enjoying my
communion feast
ive waited
so long
to taste you
ive had an idea for words that i need to get outta my head, later.
this week is gonna be a little rowdy. two plant trials. which i gotta go in late at night for. which is like workin fucked up split shifts. friday im gonna be dead. dead dead dead.
little of this. little of that today. whats this and that?
i feel physically worn. good.
this weekend was kind of a bummer. no fish. no luck gambling. no luck. no luck. no luck. what you gonna do. hopefully that changes soon.
i've been hiding in the wings. while sharpening my teeth.
this week is gonna be a little rowdy. two plant trials. which i gotta go in late at night for. which is like workin fucked up split shifts. friday im gonna be dead. dead dead dead.
little of this. little of that today. whats this and that?
i feel physically worn. good.
this weekend was kind of a bummer. no fish. no luck gambling. no luck. no luck. no luck. what you gonna do. hopefully that changes soon.
i've been hiding in the wings. while sharpening my teeth.
already dead inside my head [postcards]
got my oil changed yesterday. exciting. worked out. came to paso country.
me and christina went to cambria. had a bottle of rum and shared with the squirrels. that was pretty neat. ocean breeze in my face. then went out with caitlin later on.
went and visited the thomasons today. timmy got laid off. which sucks. economy is still brutal. i thought obama was supposed to be helping? im starting not to like him very much.
not going up north afterall. going home tomorrow instead later.
not sure what the plans for tonight are.
not sure what the plans for anything are at this point.
word to your mother.
me and christina went to cambria. had a bottle of rum and shared with the squirrels. that was pretty neat. ocean breeze in my face. then went out with caitlin later on.
went and visited the thomasons today. timmy got laid off. which sucks. economy is still brutal. i thought obama was supposed to be helping? im starting not to like him very much.
not going up north afterall. going home tomorrow instead later.
not sure what the plans for tonight are.
not sure what the plans for anything are at this point.
word to your mother.
State Of The Union
my job, its going well. im constantly learning and gettin to do pretty cool things. its a great conversation piece. the house search, im worried i wont find anything. theres not a lot out there, at all, and a lot of people seem to want houses right now. my heart, is pretty callous. and i wonder if i'll ever be able to give it away again. my workouts, are going well. i think. my social life, is better on the weekends. but i need to be more social here. i need to hang out more. my girl, is good to me. and i think she gives me all she can. my soul, is a flame that isnt burning too horribly bright. my hunger, is still a constant drip upon my brain. i try to ignore it, but its there. its always there. and instead of trying to hide it. maybe id be better fully embracing it, for once. but whatev. my overall everything, fine. there was a lot more. but. meh.
when the ball drops
im a brick fucking wall.
today i was on the food with top executives from kraft, nestle, schwanns, and others. they know my name. little things. little things.
i dont have much to say. except the walls are drab. and i need more friends in this city.
or i need friends from my old town to come here.
im looking forward to this weekend.
i love
your taste
when your
lips come
unto
me.
today i was on the food with top executives from kraft, nestle, schwanns, and others. they know my name. little things. little things.
i dont have much to say. except the walls are drab. and i need more friends in this city.
or i need friends from my old town to come here.
im looking forward to this weekend.
i love
your taste
when your
lips come
unto
me.